Sunday, October 2, 2011

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i do not know what to ask life. i ask for friends who care, for friends that when they see you not doing well will do something. i will do something if my friends are not doing good. i will walk miles, swim the ocean, stop doing what i might be doing and run to help them. Run to see them. Is this wrong?
Where can i draw the line for friendships, where can i say this is me and these are my friends?
Life does not play fair i know. They all have friends and i know i chose to fade away, i chose to see if one of them will care, but life keep them very busy...
i should do something more than just stay here... i need a hobby more than just play video games.

Saturday, October 1, 2011


Okay, so here i am feeling lonely again, this look like a normal topic. It is a habit. Well, thing is i just realized why i am feeling like this. i asked it myself. i asked God if He will do anything even if it hurts me to come closer to Him. Well this hurt too much... which means it will bring me closer to Him.
True i wished my friends will come and ask or realized sooner how i felt, but it was because i asked for it. So i can get closer to my loved one, closer to my God, and Savior.
i wrote it down, and know i am going thru that proses. i am happy that God was faithful to lead me in that direction. A friend told me there was nothing that one can do for this. Well, i know there is someone who actually can do something for this situation.
He showed up, helped me and make me realized that it was because i  asked for it.